[bammargera]

Nice topic, and glad to see people have taken the high road in sharing too, rather than the normal internet protocol of taking the piss. I feel for ya man, I lost my nan recently too.

[autotheftisgrand]

I know how that feels. My father passed away two years ago. He was never at home too much because of his job; but whenever he was there he'd always show that he loved us. He didn't even need to say the words, he did it through his actions. I idolize him and love him ever since. He was the guy who first taught me how to use a computer. He taught me how to play Starcraft. He always played Metallica or Joe Satriani on his guitar. He'd cook the greatest food such as spaghetti and steak. He was also a car fiend, thanks to him I'm a fan of F1 racing. I also taught him how to play GTA: SA and Red Alert 2. I also introduced him to the music of Dream Theater, and he loved it. I also tried to make him listen to hip-hop, some of which he liked some of which he didn't. I love my father so much, because of him I' am the person I' am today.

[kmlwin.1996]

@ Azriel: I am 15 years old.

[Lithium]

I'm sorry to hear about your uncle being sick OP.

The only close relative I've had pass away was my step fathers mother. She was around since I was about 5 years old and was an amazing woman. She could be grouchy, but she had a heart of gold and loved buying things for my sister and I. She died about 2 years ago now. I remember trying so hard at the funeral not to cry, and I didn't. I guess I was too tough to show my emotions at the time, when in reality I really don't mind showing them. I didn't realize how much she meant to me, till she was gone. She meant more to me than my real grandmother on my dads side, who is still living and I don't speak to.

Life is such a fragile thing and at any moment any one of us could die. It's scary to think about, but that's the way life is.

[trip]

kmlwin, be strong and be proud. Internet aside, I'm sure he taught you well in other areas. Grandparents(even if just by name) are the best - sometimes better than parents.

Not everyone gets the special thing of having grandparents.

I am forever grateful for my grandfathers. There is no way my father could have taught me the woodworking and electrical skills my grandfathers did.

[Sanjeem]

Besides he is still alive and has lived a good life right? I'm gratefull my grandfather lived until he was in his I think early 90's, also without the help of my Grandmother my mum probably would have had to quit work or somthing at a younger age to look after me (She doesn't trust babysitters, Thank God too) But my Gran was always there and even though i'm capable of looking after myself now more, she still is always there, don't know what I would do without her.

You see when people talk about their family being awesome and what not, nobody really understands unless they are in the same situation as you.

[Rebel]

I went through seeing my granddad pass very suddenly right before Christmas and its still very raw even after the funeral and everything. I know exactly how you feel. He wasn't my blood granddad since he passed before I was born, so to me he was the only one I've ever known. He basically had a minor stroke (my gran caught the signs early) and he was taken to hospital in October '2010. Within the first week or so he was healthy apart from getting a urine infection which made him go crazy (everyone seemed to think it was dementia) after that week of him getting better though, he seriously went downhill from then onwards. He first started to lose his vision in his right eye and then began to get bed ridden ect. He wasn't looked after very well in the hospital he was at despite there being plenty of nurses on shift when we went to visit, which was pretty much every day. He basically got moved down about an hour or so away from us all even though he wasn't getting any better. My gran did the best she could complaining about where he went (she'd never drive that far and didn't know the way) so we all had to do our part.

What shook me to my core and still does today is exactly what you've said. You've known these people be like your idol from when you were little and do so much with their lives. Then you see them go from being healthy to being completely bed ridden, thin as a stick and not even able to move (the doctors didn't know he had multiple mini strokes throughout his 2 months in the hospital) which basically left him unable to do anything. What scared me the most was seeing him in an elderly care unit sitting on one of those chairs, weighing about 5/6stone (he's about 5"9) and seeing that he couldn't even pull himself out of the chair let alone talk to any of us or eat. Looking at him right then (with the other old people in the room) he looked like he was on deaths door. Its still tough to talk about it and I think it always will be. What makes me angry is the fact my brother couldn't even take the time out of those 2 and a half months he was ill to come and see him. Not once, let alone be there for my gran. Not even a phone call.

All you can be happy about is the fact he was there for you, took the time to teach you some life lessons (as well as teaching him some things I'm sure) and that he got the most out of his life.

[kmlwin.1996]

Thanks for sharing with me. Yes, I am very proud of being the grandson of my granddad.

[Ziggy455]

I just received a PM from a Tattoo shop telling me that they've denied my apprenticeship position and given it to a woman.

Big shock there.

Now I've applied to Macdonalds.


How the f*ck do you think I feel?

[LEXTY]

QUOTE (Ziggy455 @ Apr 26 2011, 10:40)

I just received a PM from a Tattoo shop telling me that they've denied my apprenticeship position and given it to a woman. Big shock there. Now I've applied to Macdonalds. How the f*ck do you think I feel?

Excuse the French but..
Selfish F*CK you are

[bammargera]

QUOTE (Ziggy455 @ Apr 26 2011, 10:40)

I just received a PM from a Tattoo shop telling me that they've denied my apprenticeship position and given it to a woman. Big shock there. Now I've applied to Macdonalds. How the f*ck do you think I feel?

Yeah, what because she's a woman she's a worse tattooist? Ever heard of Kat Von D?

[makeshyft]

A PM? What, did you apply for this over Facebook or something?

[Ziggy455]

QUOTE (bammargera @ Apr 26 2011, 11:01)

QUOTE (Ziggy455 @ Apr 26 2011, 10:40) I just received a PM from a Tattoo shop telling me that they've denied my apprenticeship position and given it to a woman. Big shock there. Now I've applied to Macdonalds. How the f*ck do you think I feel? Yeah, what because she's a woman she's a worse tattooist? Ever heard of Kat Von D?

Lol, I think you guys have got the wrong end of the stick.

I know who Kat Von D is. When did I say that she was a bad tattooist? I merely implied it's easier for girls to get into the industry. Would you not agree?

But no, what I mean is all the tattoo shops in my area are hiring women. And it isn't because of their 'skills' either.

QUOTE

Excuse the French but.. Selfish F*CK you are

Thanks mate, you're words inspire me to change my way.


Every job I apply for it's always swallowed up by the competition. And it's always f*cking WOMEN. I'm not into sexism, It just annoys me that 90% of the industry hire women because they're just women. If you lived where I did you'd see what I mean.

This post has been edited by Ziggy455 on Tuesday, Apr 26 2011, 11:20

[Claude Speed.]

I guess it sucks to lose someone close, I haven't really experienced that yet. Surely, one grandmother and my two grandfathers died, but I didn't really feel sad, because we weren't that close.

Heck, I don't know how sorry I will be when I parents die, the more I grow the more detached I feel from them.

[Ziggy455]

QUOTE (Claude Speed. @ Apr 26 2011, 11:22)

I guess it sucks to lose someone close, I haven't really experienced that yet. Surely, one grandmother and my two grandfathers died, but I didn't really feel sad, because we weren't that close. Heck, I don't know how sorry I will be when I parents die, the more I grow the more detached I feel from them.

I agree with you there mate.

[Sanjeem]

I always feel more about these sorts of things in the night to be honest, not the day.

[kmlwin.1996]

QUOTE

[Ziggy]How the f*ck do you think I feel?

Guys, Guys, Guys...

Don't use rude words!

[Ziggy455]

QUOTE (kmlwin.1996 @ Apr 26 2011, 13:08)

QUOTE [Ziggy]How the f*ck do you think I feel? Guys, Guys, Guys... Don't use rude words!

Don't forget LEXTYs illiterate insult too now.


To finish that statement off, I feel like I'll never amount to much in my lifetime, to commerate the miserable cycle of life I now live, utter fools are out there gettin somewhere but no matter how hard I push mysef, somebody else gets the big payoff.

[Sanjeem]

Can I give a new feeling?

It's Dreams and this one i've been having in particular, twice already and I can't figure out what it means...

Bassically my father and another man are upstairs shoutings and my father (Who looks nothing like my father) is trying to kill me, i run downstairs into my grandmothers room and try and lock the door but he's pushing and bassically i manage to lock it but i know he will get in. So i figure out where he hides his pistol and take it out of my grandmothers draw and hide behind this sneaky little wall bit. He comes in with a knife, I come behind him and try and pull the trigger but it's too hard and I shoot but it doesn't hit him.

Then I know it's too late, i wasted my chance to save myself and i jump on my grans bed and ask him in Italian (even though this is in England)

Me - "Son' Tuo Figlio perche mi vuoi Ammazare" which means "I'm your son, why do you want to kill me" and I bassically just fall to my knees on the bed and give myself up for some reason and he doesn't say anything, he just looks at me with sorrow and slits my throat. It actually felt like dying. I've had this dream twice.

[trip]

QUOTE (Ziggy455 @ Apr 26 2011, 10:40)

I just received a PM from a Tattoo shop telling me that they've denied my apprenticeship position and given it to a woman. Big shock there. Now I've applied to Macdonalds. How the f*ck do you think I feel?

Wow. I had no idea that McDonalds offered tattooing services.