Usually I wouldn't do this, but I feel as if I need to have a rant and a talk on how I feel to people who won't judge.
My first issue recently is how me and my mother had a really big fall-out. I chose my best friend over her and didn't go home for three days whilst we stayed out. After so, I ended up walking out again after she kept on going on at me about past events that had already been resolved within the house. She told me that she'd phone the police and get me put into foster care despite knowing that my father (they split up when I was three) would never let that happen as he'd take me in (which he did). I went home today and basically, we started arguing over the phone because she wouldn't let me get my belongings from my bedroom in her house. I feel angry but sad. Angry because how she's treated me in the past and recently and relieved that I'm out of there but sad because after all, it is my mum. I feel like I don't want to see her but at the same time can't live without her. I act as if I'm not sad, but I really am.
The second issue is a girl I've liked for almost a year now (in love with) is dating my best friend. When I see them together my heart crushes. Recently they haven't been seeing eachother as much and I've been going out with her and her brother. Every day for the past month I've been with her, and everytime I look at her I look straight into her eyes, which isn't like me. It's hard, really hard.